Just a small bump…
2009 May 28
So that good feeling that I had on the CA Supreme Court ruling must have just been the Starbucks coffee and fresh milk in my Cheerios I had that morning. No, they didn’t come through.
I had told myself that I wasn’t going to let the decision either way affect my day. Yes, it’s a huge deal… beyond huge, but after being emotionally beaten when the CA voters passed Prop 8 in November, I was prepared this time to not let myself be knocked on my ass again.
So that morning, I did my thing. Got up, did the morning chores, started on some work, and when ten o’clock came around I didn’t even pause my workout to refresh the Supreme Court site every second to read the decision. I left my Blackberry on “loud” and trusted it to notify me when it was time.
And yet, when the email came through, my body went weak.
I won’t be dramatic with the emotional roller coaster I went through that day, but it wasn’t pretty. When my wife called to get me to join in the protest in San Francisco, I wanted to let myself to stay at home and mope.
But, I’m so glad she talked me into going. Everyone was so positive and uplifting, I left there feeling rejuvenated and motivated to continuing to help make a change… and I’m going to do just that.
If African Americans can persevere for so long and not let up, I can blow this small loss off and keep looking forward.
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Not to be a Beth Spotswood groupie (though I am), but I love her write-up today and thought it was appropriate to link in this post. Please read it here.
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